something new ...my face is on renovation

what with the heading, well Monday 12 December 2011... something happen to my face...having a drink in the morning felt something not right...well on checking the mirror...a slight distortion on my face, my right side of the face was pulled toward the left.  Not know was I happened...to PKU (University Health Centre), it seem i got what you call 'Ball Palsy' due to infections on the  muscle of the face..hence the eye lid, cheek, mouth get distorted...referred was I to Serdang Hospital and prescribed me with steroid...vitamins...hhmmm forgotten what else as it has been sometimes (3 years + something months ago).

Today 18 April 2017, come across my mind about blogspot...after several attemped, manage I to login, thank God...thought i lost the account hehehhehehhe...I hope to be writing again.  Not much for now... until we meet again ...bye for now kekekekekeke friends...ex girlfriends (thanks for the wonderful time when we were together) adios

JinAir~

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dr.sidina chewan on October 26, 2010 at 1:43 am

Di bawah ini ingin saya menyatakan beberapa fakta sejarah yang melibatkan Laksmana Hang Tuah yang tidak pernah di tulis oleh sesiapa pun, Riwayat Hang Tuah telah di tulis ketika dia berkhidmat dengan sultan Melakam akan tetapi tidak ada ahli sejarah yang dapat menceritakan asal usul Hang Tuah sebelum dan selepas dia tiba di Melaka.

Tidak ada sesiapa pun menulis tentang peradaban sebenar bangsa Melayu yang telah bermula dari banjara Mahamiru dan persekitaran Laut Mulayu bermula sejak 28 ribu tahun yang silam apabila moyang awal rumpun Melayu datok Balang dan Sang Mujung datang dari Edan dan memilih Banjaran Mahamiru [Pantai Timur Tanah Melayu]sebagai tempat menyemai benih rumpunnya yang amat terasyia itu, yang datang dari percikan keturunan Nabi Adam yang senantiasa mengesakan Tuhan dari awal hingga akhir zaman.yang datok Balang Sang Mujung menamakannya MULAYU- cendana yang amat indah dan mewangi mengharumi persekitaran Mahamiru [sekarang gunung Tebu]

Dari Banjaran Mahamirulah puloh ribu tahun kemudiannya rumpun Melayu mengembara membadai laut dan gelombang mengharung lembah dan danau dengan penuh kegigihan dan semangat waja menghuni ke seluruh laut selatan, pertama mereka meneroka dataran Mekong dari Telok Siam ke Indo China,kemudian yang lain turun ke kepuluan selatan Andalas dan pentas Sunda, yang lain pula merempuh gelombang ganas ke puluan Filpina,Kalimatan dan sejauh Madagasegar dan banyak lagi, itulah riwayat keperkasaan Rumpun Melayu di zaman purba.
Diantara ribuan kastaria agong rumpun Melayu ini di perlbagai zaman banyak nama-nama agong yang hilang tidak timbul-timbul diantaranya; pemerintah BENUA MU[MU CONTINENT]bernama Srikandi CHE WAN EZZAH 16 BC. Srikandi Che Wan Radhiah 14 BC. Pendekar Rimba Jati Raja Tanjung Pura 7000 BC. Sang Saka raja pertama Langkasuka, Sang Merong, raja Tanjung Pura, Srimara Mek Matahari ratu Kuangwan,800 BC.DLL.

Riwayat panglima besar Hang Tuah bermula dari moyang awalnya yang menguasai LEMBAH NANGGIRI Hulu Kelantan yang bernama HANG NYANYA 11 ribu tahun dahulu, moyanhnya yang terkemudian adalah Hang Sekebal panglima Sauvana bhumi [Setiu]seterusnya di zaman keagongan Besut yang mutakhir iaitu di akhir kurun ke tiga belas Hang Tuah di lahirkan Di Pulau Duyung [Terengganu] PADA 23hb.May tahun Masihi 1395. ketika berusia 15 tahun mengikut ayahandanya Hang Mahmood berhijrah ke negeri baru MELAKA iaitu TM 1410 di negeri baru Melaka dia bertemu dengan susur galurnya Hang Jebat yang berhijrah dari SAMPURNA [Sabah]Hang Kasruri dari Pagar Ruyung, Hang Lekir dari Bukit Siguntang dan Hang Lekiu dari Tumasik.

Disana mereka berlima berpakat berguru Pancasona mengikut tridisi susur galornya miliki lima asna yang maha perkasa dari atma persilatan pancasona yang diwarisinya sejak Hang Nyanya lagi.

Selepas kecewa dengan telatah sultan Melaka apa lagi hilangnya paksi gabongan irama pancasona yang sakti itu dia meninggalkan Melaka ke Bentang kemudian ke Gunung Ledang akhir sekali pulang ke Terengganu bertapa di Gunung Tembat ketika usia mencecah 100 tahun, dan meninggal di GUNUNG TEMBAT ketika usia 115 tahun.- sidina chewan


dr.sidina chewan on October 28, 2010 at 8:04 am

Terima kasih saudaraku Anak Waris, kerana telah cuba menerima hakikat sebenar keperkasaan bangsa MELAYU dalam siasah dan ikhitas zaman primula yang telah keseluruhannya di lupuskan oleh bangsa-bangsa asing selepas politik dan ekonomi bangsa Melayu di mupliskan kemudiannya! kerana kealpaan jenerasi Melayu pewaris sebelum kita!,Atas dasar mencari hakikat itulah saya telah mengembara dan mempelajari pelbagai bahasa asing dan mengkaji kebudayaan mereka sehingga saya telah mendapat kepastian bahawa bahasa MELAYU PURBA telah menjadi bahasa sumber rujukan kepada bahasa LATIN dan SANSKRIT, kedua-dua bahasa klasik itu telah diwujudkan dizaman kecermelangan bahasa Melayu Purba, bahasa Melayu yang telah wujud puloh ribu tahun lebih awal dari mereka masih terus kekal sehingga hari ini akan tetapi bahasa tiruan itu sudah pupus cuma menjadi sebutan dalam upacara pemujaan agama mereka sahaja!
Satu lagi diantara ribuan sejarah orang-orang Melayu yang telah dilupuskan seperti mutakhirnya; dalam tahun 767 Masihi di era keaggongan mutahhir bangsa Melayu iaitu Raja Sarpini pemerintah empayar Melayu Srivijaya di Laut Mulayu,yang berpusat di kota Takula [Kuala Setiu] telah mendengar ura-ura maharaja China penguasa utara Khemir,mahu memotong kepalanya.Mendengar dari perisiknya itu baginda amat murka langsong tanpa bicara panjang terus memimpin 50 ribu laskar Lautnya menyerang Tanah Besar.[The Malay Fleets attacked China]. sebelum mendarat tentera laut Melayu itu di hadang oleh angkatan Laut China pimpinan Guar Chee.Raja Sarpini berjaya melumpohkan angkatan Guar Chee itu dalam perang besar di Laut Mulayu Utara.
Baginda kemudiannya mengempur Tanah Besar China dan dalam misi itu telah berjaya memotong kepala Raja itu dan akhirnya Raja Sarpini mengepong Tembok Besar China, selepas beberapa lama mengepongnya China minta perdamaian,selepas berdama Raja Sarpini menarik balik laskarnya dari bumi China! itu diantara sejarah keperkasaan Melayu yang sengaja tidak di tulis!

Melayu masa kini bermegah atas kekalahan bangsanya, seperti bermegah-megah dengan kekalahan Melaka ketangan Purtugis,betapa tidaknya cuba lihat di Melaka sekarang! jumpa lagi.


dr.sidina chewan on October 29, 2010 at 1:18 am

Sdr.Anak Waris,Riwayat kono Bangsa Mulayu banyak tercatat dalam skrip purba asing yang sukar di olah, perkataan “Benua Mu” nama kepada Benua Mulayu yang tenggelam itu masih ada terpahat di sebuah pagoda di Nepal. sudah lebih dua puloh tahun saya menyusun riwayat primula Melayu dalam bahasa Melayu masakini tapi masih belum siap lagi sepenuhnya,doakan muga-muga bahan-bahannya dapat di sempurnakan secepat mungkin untuk percetakan. ....JinAir~ sekadar nak kongsi ngan kengkawan apa yang terbaca.. :)

things that i cherished...

All this while I always go to TGV or GSC alone..for once i appreciate a company. On the 2nd of October 2011 for the first time on a date with a lovely lady meeting for the first time...the show titled Killer Elite...at 2.30 pm. seating at C7 and C8 ...thank you dear :) for your company....wangsa walk. We had a tutti frutti before i send her home...thanks for the pict...

Well last night 17 Disember 2011 (Saturday) we did it again...11.15 p.m...the muffet..hehehehehehe well i enjoy your company dear...thanks again. i do not know if we will ever be seeing any show after this... if there's no chance that i will experience this again...i bit you thank you and may you have a happy and wellness in your life with your patner who will care you well dear...farewell :)

things that i cherished :)

what i did yesterday 6 Nov. 2011(aidiladha)


Aidiladha (celebration of sacrifies...korban in arabic meaning to be close to Allah) well maybe it suite well with what i did... sacrify my feeling...my thought trying to be honest to Allah...Rasulullah...my ex-sweetheart and myself. Received a message and call from my ex-sweetheart, asking if i could help her... to pick her up at the LCCT in sepang and send her home about 150km away. I did so....pick her up at the airport at 9.00 p.m and we proceed straight home, she wasn't alone...with her house mate... all along the way i tried not to speak... not to spoilt anything, the peace that existed between us at the moment...it was odd but for the better. She however did try to start some conversatios but... i do not feel the honesty within her...what with her friend along. It is best that i kept quiet all the way...150km. we arrived at 10.30 p.m at her home... i am sorry dear.... thank you for i do not require from you and your friend thank... my vow is to keep silaturrahim between us intact...no need for you to thanks me.


I stopped over for dinner at sekincan ikan bakar...had myself a squid and "ikan sebelah" rice and a hot tea, at about 11.45 pm. i headed back to KL...it was a refreshing drive... i needed the long drive for than i discovered and confirmed that i am at peace... :) ...rosmazlin md zaid... i will remember you ...i bit you farewell...i respect your decision and if we were to cross path..than it is the will of Allah... Assalammualaikum and good bye.

p.s Thanks for being part of my life for sometimes.

love




just co-incident or circumstances...on the way back to kuala lumpur from last meeting with the now ex-sweet heart "sayangg".... Dalili Maisarah seem to come into my life...thank you for you helped me going through the pain... we messaged all the way... well dearest or shall i say 'baby' the nick that you want me to call you..and how i love the words 'sayang' that you called me. Baby i could only says that it is difficult for me to call you sayang as that the nick i call my ex-sweet heart by dear...i hope you forgive me....i love to call you baby.... baby give time for you to know me better baby...i hate to lose you with the circumstances so... i will tell you the story of my life..and if you still felt the love you now feel...i will be with you dearest :) ...you would not feel lonely again.

i hope and i pray that things will fall into place... you and me ... time will tell hmmmm love you Dalili Maisarah...and i seriously love your name :)

talking about scar



the first ever scar that i remember getting was in an incident when i was about 6 years ...playing what they called lering (pronounce layring)...a milo tin cover nailed onto a piece of wooden rod of about 3 feets. i would hold one end of the rod and push it along the ground where the circular cover will rotate/roll...i would run around making engine sound as if i am riding a motorbike... well how do i get the scar...while pushing the rod...the cover got stuck against a piece of half buried granite stone...the end piece of the rod wedge against my stomach and i flipped over and banged my face on a piece of stone...got three (3) stitches on my right eye brow..if you look closely you will see a scar.

the second time when i climbed a tree in front of my house...leaning near a barb wire... my leg slip an a piece of the barb wire grace on my skin...6 inches of scar on my chest...

the third...and accident with a motorcycle i have mention earlier, was hospitalized... scar suffer on my cheek, both elbow and both knee. the elbow and knee leave a clear marked scar until this day.

the fourth...scar from a motorcycle accident on the highway on the way to work...seven (7) days before i receive a letter saying i passed the motorcycle riding licence hehehehehehe...irony. scar right knee and right elbow...distinct until now...i dive and landed on the right side before i turn onto my back...thus avoid getting serious injury.

the fifth... i received while on the way from malacca to meet my "sayangg rmz" waiting for me at the mine... nearing nilai a motorcycle smash against the rear of my broken down car parked on the emergency lane...i was outside by the right front bonnet....most of the scars cleared...only those still visible the knuckles of my two hands, wrist of my left hand...both knees...a bend small fingers on my left hand. from the operation to instal an interlocking plate on underside of my left radius...stitches.

the scar that will never cleared and will be remembered until the end of my time is a broken heart cause by the end of my intimate relationship with the love of my life "sayangg Rosmazlin Md Zaid". intimate date i will remember 26th. December 2009 (a ring of love and a htc) ....3 rd. October 2011 where things just have to begin of the end.....and the last meeting lasted 7 hours 23 October 2011...i have cried much earlier that you can see me cry no more...but i am sad to see you cry your heart out..it just breaks me to pieces...i am glad that you cried for than i know that you love me as i love you...but thing just have to end dear...the piece of lace and cloth for your wedding gown that we picked together are all that i could bear to present you with...i cherished every moment of the time we were together and i never regret knowing you my love. be happy with the decisions made and i bit farewell dearest. You have completed me and now you have to complete yourself in this life...i will try to hold on to my promises as long as Allah allows, until He takes the memories of you from my mind and heart ... daaaa dearest.

picts depict...the last ride & last marked
<3 u 4ever 4 the memories

continue-ity...my sort of diary hehehe

Reading back, something caught my attention... why i was afraid of water. I recalled an incident...heehehe may be funny... but quite scary leaving mark on me till this day. When we were living in Batu 10 Changkat Changi, in a house address was 144A (till now remember the figure hehehe) ...my mother chased me with a small stick of curry tree branch. All around the house i ran and out the front door and in through the kitchen and around again through the front door and back into the house through the kitchen..after several round..i notice my mother was getting tired..so i give in... do not want to anger her more...she caught me and pull me into the bathroom ...yes i was difficult to bath early. To my surprise...after she douse me with water...she lift me and place me in the drum of water (an oil barrel metal container modified to hold water) and closed the lit on me...i was in the dark and the water was at an ankle deep. To a very young me..i was terrified, to be in the dark watery barrel. I don't remember how long..but after a while...she let me out... but from that moment on i was clausterphobic and fear to be in a pool of water as if i would drown...the moral of the story here is never never ever punish your child such, i manage to over come it in 1978 when i became a swimmer...but during training and long distant competitive swimming i would choke on water..due to the experience when sudden flood of memory rush returned...imagine while swimming long distant. now I still felt clausterphobic when the thought of being put in an enclose spot...like grave... I am reading the Surah Qul so that my grave will be large and spacious..seriously....childhood experience.