something new ...my face is on renovation
Tuesday, April 18, 2017 9:27 AM
what with the heading, well Monday 12 December 2011... something happen to my face...having a drink in the morning felt something not right...well on checking the mirror...a slight distortion on my face, my right side of the face was pulled toward the left. Not know was I happened...to PKU (University Health Centre), it seem i got what you call 'Ball Palsy' due to infections on the muscle of the face..hence the eye lid, cheek, mouth get distorted...referred was I to Serdang Hospital and prescribed me with steroid...vitamins...hhmmm forgotten what else as it has been sometimes (3 years + something months ago).
Today 18 April 2017, come across my mind about blogspot...after several attemped, manage I to login, thank God...thought i lost the account hehehhehehhe...I hope to be writing again. Not much for now... until we meet again ...bye for now kekekekekeke friends...ex girlfriends (thanks for the wonderful time when we were together) adios
JinAir~
petikan Hang Tuah dari fb
Tuesday, February 14, 2012 10:36 PM
Di bawah ini ingin saya menyatakan beberapa fakta sejarah yang melibatkan Laksmana Hang Tuah yang tidak pernah di tulis oleh sesiapa pun, Riwayat Hang Tuah telah di tulis ketika dia berkhidmat dengan sultan Melakam akan tetapi tidak ada ahli sejarah yang dapat menceritakan asal usul Hang Tuah sebelum dan selepas dia tiba di Melaka.
Tidak ada sesiapa pun menulis tentang peradaban sebenar bangsa Melayu yang telah bermula dari banjara Mahamiru dan persekitaran Laut Mulayu bermula sejak 28 ribu tahun yang silam apabila moyang awal rumpun Melayu datok Balang dan Sang Mujung datang dari Edan dan memilih Banjaran Mahamiru [Pantai Timur Tanah Melayu]sebagai tempat menyemai benih rumpunnya yang amat terasyia itu, yang datang dari percikan keturunan Nabi Adam yang senantiasa mengesakan Tuhan dari awal hingga akhir zaman.yang datok Balang Sang Mujung menamakannya MULAYU- cendana yang amat indah dan mewangi mengharumi persekitaran Mahamiru [sekarang gunung Tebu]
Dari Banjaran Mahamirulah puloh ribu tahun kemudiannya rumpun Melayu mengembara membadai laut dan gelombang mengharung lembah dan danau dengan penuh kegigihan dan semangat waja menghuni ke seluruh laut selatan, pertama mereka meneroka dataran Mekong dari Telok Siam ke Indo China,kemudian yang lain turun ke kepuluan selatan Andalas dan pentas Sunda, yang lain pula merempuh gelombang ganas ke puluan Filpina,Kalimatan dan sejauh Madagasegar dan banyak lagi, itulah riwayat keperkasaan Rumpun Melayu di zaman purba.
Diantara ribuan kastaria agong rumpun Melayu ini di perlbagai zaman banyak nama-nama agong yang hilang tidak timbul-timbul diantaranya; pemerintah BENUA MU[MU CONTINENT]bernama Srikandi CHE WAN EZZAH 16 BC. Srikandi Che Wan Radhiah 14 BC. Pendekar Rimba Jati Raja Tanjung Pura 7000 BC. Sang Saka raja pertama Langkasuka, Sang Merong, raja Tanjung Pura, Srimara Mek Matahari ratu Kuangwan,800 BC.DLL.
Riwayat panglima besar Hang Tuah bermula dari moyang awalnya yang menguasai LEMBAH NANGGIRI Hulu Kelantan yang bernama HANG NYANYA 11 ribu tahun dahulu, moyanhnya yang terkemudian adalah Hang Sekebal panglima Sauvana bhumi [Setiu]seterusnya di zaman keagongan Besut yang mutakhir iaitu di akhir kurun ke tiga belas Hang Tuah di lahirkan Di Pulau Duyung [Terengganu] PADA 23hb.May tahun Masihi 1395. ketika berusia 15 tahun mengikut ayahandanya Hang Mahmood berhijrah ke negeri baru MELAKA iaitu TM 1410 di negeri baru Melaka dia bertemu dengan susur galurnya Hang Jebat yang berhijrah dari SAMPURNA [Sabah]Hang Kasruri dari Pagar Ruyung, Hang Lekir dari Bukit Siguntang dan Hang Lekiu dari Tumasik.
Disana mereka berlima berpakat berguru Pancasona mengikut tridisi susur galornya miliki lima asna yang maha perkasa dari atma persilatan pancasona yang diwarisinya sejak Hang Nyanya lagi.
Selepas kecewa dengan telatah sultan Melaka apa lagi hilangnya paksi gabongan irama pancasona yang sakti itu dia meninggalkan Melaka ke Bentang kemudian ke Gunung Ledang akhir sekali pulang ke Terengganu bertapa di Gunung Tembat ketika usia mencecah 100 tahun, dan meninggal di GUNUNG TEMBAT ketika usia 115 tahun.- sidina chewan
Terima kasih saudaraku Anak Waris, kerana telah cuba menerima hakikat sebenar keperkasaan bangsa MELAYU dalam siasah dan ikhitas zaman primula yang telah keseluruhannya di lupuskan oleh bangsa-bangsa asing selepas politik dan ekonomi bangsa Melayu di mupliskan kemudiannya! kerana kealpaan jenerasi Melayu pewaris sebelum kita!,Atas dasar mencari hakikat itulah saya telah mengembara dan mempelajari pelbagai bahasa asing dan mengkaji kebudayaan mereka sehingga saya telah mendapat kepastian bahawa bahasa MELAYU PURBA telah menjadi bahasa sumber rujukan kepada bahasa LATIN dan SANSKRIT, kedua-dua bahasa klasik itu telah diwujudkan dizaman kecermelangan bahasa Melayu Purba, bahasa Melayu yang telah wujud puloh ribu tahun lebih awal dari mereka masih terus kekal sehingga hari ini akan tetapi bahasa tiruan itu sudah pupus cuma menjadi sebutan dalam upacara pemujaan agama mereka sahaja!
Satu lagi diantara ribuan sejarah orang-orang Melayu yang telah dilupuskan seperti mutakhirnya; dalam tahun 767 Masihi di era keaggongan mutahhir bangsa Melayu iaitu Raja Sarpini pemerintah empayar Melayu Srivijaya di Laut Mulayu,yang berpusat di kota Takula [Kuala Setiu] telah mendengar ura-ura maharaja China penguasa utara Khemir,mahu memotong kepalanya.Mendengar dari perisiknya itu baginda amat murka langsong tanpa bicara panjang terus memimpin 50 ribu laskar Lautnya menyerang Tanah Besar.[The Malay Fleets attacked China]. sebelum mendarat tentera laut Melayu itu di hadang oleh angkatan Laut China pimpinan Guar Chee.Raja Sarpini berjaya melumpohkan angkatan Guar Chee itu dalam perang besar di Laut Mulayu Utara.
Baginda kemudiannya mengempur Tanah Besar China dan dalam misi itu telah berjaya memotong kepala Raja itu dan akhirnya Raja Sarpini mengepong Tembok Besar China, selepas beberapa lama mengepongnya China minta perdamaian,selepas berdama Raja Sarpini menarik balik laskarnya dari bumi China! itu diantara sejarah keperkasaan Melayu yang sengaja tidak di tulis!
Melayu masa kini bermegah atas kekalahan bangsanya, seperti bermegah-megah dengan kekalahan Melaka ketangan Purtugis,betapa tidaknya cuba lihat di Melaka sekarang! jumpa lagi.
Sdr.Anak Waris,Riwayat kono Bangsa Mulayu banyak tercatat dalam skrip purba asing yang sukar di olah, perkataan “Benua Mu” nama kepada Benua Mulayu yang tenggelam itu masih ada terpahat di sebuah pagoda di Nepal. sudah lebih dua puloh tahun saya menyusun riwayat primula Melayu dalam bahasa Melayu masakini tapi masih belum siap lagi sepenuhnya,doakan muga-muga bahan-bahannya dapat di sempurnakan secepat mungkin untuk percetakan.
things that i cherished...
Sunday, December 18, 2011 5:31 PM
All this while I always go to TGV or GSC alone..for once i appreciate a company. On the 2nd of October 2011 for the first time on a date with a lovely lady meeting for the first time...the show titled Killer Elite...at 2.30 pm. seating at C7 and C8 ...thank you dear :) for your company....wangsa walk. We had a tutti frutti before i send her home...thanks for the pict...
Well last night 17 Disember 2011 (Saturday) we did it again...11.15 p.m...the muffet..hehehehehehe well i enjoy your company dear...thanks again. i do not know if we will ever be seeing any show after this... if there's no chance that i will experience this again...i bit you thank you and may you have a happy and wellness in your life with your patner who will care you well dear...farewell :)
things that i cherished :)
what i did yesterday 6 Nov. 2011(aidiladha)
Monday, November 7, 2011 9:09 PM
Aidiladha (celebration of sacrifies...korban in arabic meaning to be close to Allah) well maybe it suite well with what i did... sacrify my feeling...my thought trying to be honest to Allah...Rasulullah...my ex-sweetheart and myself. Received a message and call from my ex-sweetheart, asking if i could help her... to pick her up at the LCCT in sepang and send her home about 150km away. I did so....pick her up at the airport at 9.00 p.m and we proceed straight home, she wasn't alone...with her house mate... all along the way i tried not to speak... not to spoilt anything, the peace that existed between us at the moment...it was odd but for the better. She however did try to start some conversatios but... i do not feel the honesty within her...what with her friend along. It is best that i kept quiet all the way...150km. we arrived at 10.30 p.m at her home... i am sorry dear.... thank you for i do not require from you and your friend thank... my vow is to keep silaturrahim between us intact...no need for you to thanks me.
I stopped over for dinner at sekincan ikan bakar...had myself a squid and "ikan sebelah" rice and a hot tea, at about 11.45 pm. i headed back to KL...it was a refreshing drive... i needed the long drive for than i discovered and confirmed that i am at peace... :) ...rosmazlin md zaid... i will remember you ...i bit you farewell...i respect your decision and if we were to cross path..than it is the will of Allah... Assalammualaikum and good bye.
p.s Thanks for being part of my life for sometimes.
love
Thursday, November 3, 2011 8:31 AM
just co-incident or circumstances...on the way back to kuala lumpur from last meeting with the now ex-sweet heart "sayangg".... Dalili Maisarah seem to come into my life...thank you for you helped me going through the pain... we messaged all the way... well dearest or shall i say 'baby' the nick that you want me to call you..and how i love the words 'sayang' that you called me. Baby i could only says that it is difficult for me to call you sayang as that the nick i call my ex-sweet heart by dear...i hope you forgive me....i love to call you baby.... baby give time for you to know me better baby...i hate to lose you with the circumstances so... i will tell you the story of my life..and if you still felt the love you now feel...i will be with you dearest :) ...you would not feel lonely again.
i hope and i pray that things will fall into place... you and me ... time will tell hmmmm love you Dalili Maisarah...and i seriously love your name :)
talking about scar
Saturday, October 29, 2011 4:09 PM
the first ever scar that i remember getting was in an incident when i was about 6 years ...playing what they called lering (pronounce layring)...a milo tin cover nailed onto a piece of wooden rod of about 3 feets. i would hold one end of the rod and push it along the ground where the circular cover will rotate/roll...i would run around making engine sound as if i am riding a motorbike... well how do i get the scar...while pushing the rod...the cover got stuck against a piece of half buried granite stone...the end piece of the rod wedge against my stomach and i flipped over and banged my face on a piece of stone...got three (3) stitches on my right eye brow..if you look closely you will see a scar.
the second time when i climbed a tree in front of my house...leaning near a barb wire... my leg slip an a piece of the barb wire grace on my skin...6 inches of scar on my chest...
the third...and accident with a motorcycle i have mention earlier, was hospitalized... scar suffer on my cheek, both elbow and both knee. the elbow and knee leave a clear marked scar until this day.
the fourth...scar from a motorcycle accident on the highway on the way to work...seven (7) days before i receive a letter saying i passed the motorcycle riding licence hehehehehehe...irony. scar right knee and right elbow...distinct until now...i dive and landed on the right side before i turn onto my back...thus avoid getting serious injury.
the fifth... i received while on the way from malacca to meet my "sayangg rmz" waiting for me at the mine... nearing nilai a motorcycle smash against the rear of my broken down car parked on the emergency lane...i was outside by the right front bonnet....most of the scars cleared...only those still visible the knuckles of my two hands, wrist of my left hand...both knees...a bend small fingers on my left hand. from the operation to instal an interlocking plate on underside of my left radius...stitches.
the scar that will never cleared and will be remembered until the end of my time is a broken heart cause by the end of my intimate relationship with the love of my life "sayangg Rosmazlin Md Zaid". intimate date i will remember 26th. December 2009 (a ring of love and a htc) ....3 rd. October 2011 where things just have to begin of the end.....and the last meeting lasted 7 hours 23 October 2011...i have cried much earlier that you can see me cry no more...but i am sad to see you cry your heart out..it just breaks me to pieces...i am glad that you cried for than i know that you love me as i love you...but thing just have to end dear...the piece of lace and cloth for your wedding gown that we picked together are all that i could bear to present you with...i cherished every moment of the time we were together and i never regret knowing you my love. be happy with the decisions made and i bit farewell dearest. You have completed me and now you have to complete yourself in this life...i will try to hold on to my promises as long as Allah allows, until He takes the memories of you from my mind and heart ... daaaa dearest.
picts depict...the last ride & last marked
<3 u 4ever 4 the memories
continue-ity...my sort of diary hehehe
Monday, May 23, 2011 9:29 PM
Reading back, something caught my attention... why i was afraid of water. I recalled an incident...heehehe may be funny... but quite scary leaving mark on me till this day. When we were living in Batu 10 Changkat Changi, in a house address was 144A (till now remember the figure hehehe) ...my mother chased me with a small stick of curry tree branch. All around the house i ran and out the front door and in through the kitchen and around again through the front door and back into the house through the kitchen..after several round..i notice my mother was getting tired..so i give in... do not want to anger her more...she caught me and pull me into the bathroom ...yes i was difficult to bath early. To my surprise...after she douse me with water...she lift me and place me in the drum of water (an oil barrel metal container modified to hold water) and closed the lit on me...i was in the dark and the water was at an ankle deep. To a very young me..i was terrified, to be in the dark watery barrel. I don't remember how long..but after a while...she let me out... but from that moment on i was clausterphobic and fear to be in a pool of water as if i would drown...the moral of the story here is never never ever punish your child such, i manage to over come it in 1978 when i became a swimmer...but during training and long distant competitive swimming i would choke on water..due to the experience when sudden flood of memory rush returned...imagine while swimming long distant. now I still felt clausterphobic when the thought of being put in an enclose spot...like grave... I am reading the Surah Qul so that my grave will be large and spacious..seriously....childhood experience.
a memoir perhap...
Tuesday, March 22, 2011 6:37 PM
Call me JinAir~, I was born in Singapore when The Island nation was still a state in Malaysia. The things that i remember off my mind... attended nursery for a short while...my grandfather send and pick me up but it wasn't long...i stopped don't remember why...one day with 10 cent in my hand i walk quite a distance maybe about 2 km to the market to purchase a toy...can't remember what...all i can remember was crossing the road in front of a parked van, when suddenly motorcycle hit me...i remember flying through the air and landed on the road...when i came around...still had my 10 cent in my hand...i was in the arms of a police man...still remember the smell of the uniform till this day...comfortable i was though. I remember laying in the ambulance, the siren was on....I must have fall asleep because the next thing i remember opening my eyes ...i was laying in bed with my parent with me. In the hospital i remember seeing a patient next to me having a good meal...but i wasn't allow any food...just drink...than the uncle hand me an orange which i appreciated very much...i kept it awhile. I was comfortable and feeling sort of independent..able to stay all by myself without feeling fear or afraid... maybe that the first time i was left alone...but most of all the hospital was comfortable.
I was told...during the accident...my mother was baking a cake...burned the cake was...sorry mum...my cheek was injured...so as my elbows and knees.... other than that i am okay.
I remember going to school in an army van....my farther was with the 19th. Signal Royal Regiment of the British Army...base in Changi Airport. I remember occasionally a nurse would come to my class and call out student to go to the dentist. Sometime my teeth was clean and check at times tooth were extract...but thank to the dentist...i still have a strong full set of teeth. There are two distinct thing i remember to this day....i learned sewing...i can sew till now i used that skill...the other thing...during an exam one of the question was naming parts of a mushroom...i did not know what the underside of the head of the mushroom was call...looking at it closely ...it look like a fish gill...so i wrote Gill..and to my surprise the answer was correct... i am proud of myself, until now i still remember it well..Gill hehehehe. From Bedok Primary School, i was transfer to Telok Paku Primary School...my father got an army quarters. it was big and clean. Every evening my dad would take me and my younger brother to the beach...nice and comfortable..but i was scare of water....no knowing to swim. Truck will takes me to school everyday...at time i decide to walk back home through the wood...how innocent it was...do not know fear everything was nice and comfortable... in school i am involved in gardening...every Saturday we would go to school and do gardening and cleaning the school compound...after that we will be shown movie at the science lab...it was an honour to be treated such.
Point to ponder...childhood memories it is always the best...full of innocent and truth. Thanks mum and dad for taking care of me well...you have provides the best for me and my brothers.
continue on the next post :)
at the lowest end of the wheel of life
Sunday, March 13, 2011 12:28 PM
today i came to office, not to work but to apologies to my colleagues for not able to perform my duty. looking at things positively... i am once again being test by Allah... for what i asked for. i am at the lowest end of the wheel in mind and spirit. i think and i feel i know why and what the point are... i needed to be patient very very patient, in time it will be reveal to me, just that i do not know if i could overcome or succumb to the battles injuries.
Forgive me if in my profile i wrote a statement as such... for this instant this moment that is how i feel and like to share...pour out. i needed to ...to lift a bit of the burden i carry. i will change it when the darkness is lifted...i shall... thanks for being patient... smile i am not able :(
After a long silence....may be this be the start for me to writes...
sad...truly sad
Saturday, March 12, 2011 1:42 PM
this is truly the saddest day of my life... what i can say is... i have been always honest to myself from day one..and always have to those close to me...but at this moment ...i felt betrayal... lost not only a friend of recent..but that particular day...i lost too something of precious to me...i also lost trust even to myself and the principles that i have withheld...it has been a wonderful journey... maybe that was just it...a journey. i now will go on a journey...alone...just like i use too at one time...being solitaire does have it advantage....it does not hurt. just silent and calm...loneliness works best for me...care not of anyone...but just plain old me. I need to go on a journey...a long journey...well the opportunity is there...but i just need to be a bit patient... i hope i could, i wish i could, help me Allah...let my wish..my long wish that i made everyday come true... i am beaten at this very moment...i have just give up...no more hope and no more strength within to pursuit... i have always give in to goodness...but what i felt is not giving in to any goodness any more...neither to badness i give in...just to you Allah... i will erase my present in this world...little by little as how i make present myself little by little...let me finish what that ask of you to do...and take me if you still love me Allah...let me complete what i needed to do and take me then for i do not wish any more...i have always felt the love of You...i have always try to be the best with all that are the weakness in me... I have always keep You close in my heart and thank you for having teachers me and helping me along the way..i have alway felt You near to me...syukur Alhamdulillah.... last my wish Allah...let my children be successful in life and life after...i have done that i could within my mean...to those i may have offended or mistreat ...find yourself a place in your heart to forgive me...i am sorry...i may still pen something occasionally useful i hope...thanks and i now silent myself ever greatly.
hard i am, soft i am too
Wednesday, March 9, 2011 11:59 PM
i live life as well as i can, i have learned and understand as much as i could, learned i still am, i am hard... at one time, fear not of any... come what may matter not at all to me. i trained myself to be a person nerve of steel...care less and hard on me, you don't see tears on my face not ever...i build principles and hold steadfast to it...thats what being keeping me free of tears and regret ...travel i alway did, alone i am always for if i were to perish...i wouldn't care if no one found me... i like to just dissappear knowing that i would not trouble anybody...be it on land or in the sea...for all i know...the world is free for anybody. but Allah have plans for me... what i fear or not...He made understand of me, thrice death come close to me...survived i with the will of He. He gives me knowledges and make me see that knowledges i receives after i seek...share i must with all of thee.
i would like to share my friends ...that only thrice i cried profusely...the death of my father i cried because only up to that moment that i could be of service to him...for always my wealth i gladly share freely... i cried in silent the day i lost my friend...it is hard holding back tears but managed i did..so that performed i can to be of assistance to the family and would be...but be truthful to all thee...i cried profusely as i drive leaving the compound of the cemetary...that's as much of a service that i could give to my departed buddy...and last but not least i did cry silently for this time my friend i would not reveal... just to say it's wonderful but deep and painful at time i feel... let this ..in time it will reveal ;)
i truly hope thy all don't mind the way i wrote... it's not that often i write but more of my nature to read..in silent i'll always be reading page after page what ever thy wrote...but occasionally i do pen one or two freely.
Life of uncertainty
Tuesday, February 22, 2011 6:09 PM
Life is but full of uncertainty...it is confirmed but it could just be a maybe... what planned may not be a reality...no plan and it can be...the world is changing...so ought we...not to change could also be... days goes by is a reality as dark the night the next day clear it be... despair not friends...some things are out of our league....for still we my friend still can take the lead...do we can what in control we need...for choices to choose we have....it's up to thee :)
Today 25 Feb 2011... it is a reality for me of the uncertainty...yesterday reported to hospital to undergo an operation to remove implant that been in me for 1 year 1 month... i was wheeled into the preparation room and after 20 minutes of preparation...wheeled toward the operation theater..but was stopped just in the hallway...because the apparatus to be use for the removal was not around...the chance of that to happen is very rare as mentioned by the surgeon...apology accepted thus was wheeled back to the ward...after discussion with the specialist...i decided to just keep the implant in my wrist....since it is the second time an attempt to remove fail...the first was on the 8 Feb 2011 ....if the ladies wear things of expensive on their wrist...i too have a rm2++K in my wrist hehehe meaning in my wrist as under my skin :) ....adious senor..senoritas mmuuaahhhs
Today 25 Feb 2011... it is a reality for me of the uncertainty...yesterday reported to hospital to undergo an operation to remove implant that been in me for 1 year 1 month... i was wheeled into the preparation room and after 20 minutes of preparation...wheeled toward the operation theater..but was stopped just in the hallway...because the apparatus to be use for the removal was not around...the chance of that to happen is very rare as mentioned by the surgeon...apology accepted thus was wheeled back to the ward...after discussion with the specialist...i decided to just keep the implant in my wrist....since it is the second time an attempt to remove fail...the first was on the 8 Feb 2011 ....if the ladies wear things of expensive on their wrist...i too have a rm2++K in my wrist hehehe meaning in my wrist as under my skin :) ....adious senor..senoritas mmuuaahhhs
Dieting or starving
10:41 AM
I am on a weight loss mode...diet not so much...but more of starving. It's between small portion of food and none...but water a must for dehydration can kill...with the shutting down of vital organ...which will eventually lead to death. Source of energy will be from the stored fat... but watch for hypoglycemic which is too low/lack of glycogen use in the process of conversion into energy. Another thing to monitor is what food substance in the stomach...the timing too so as to make sure gastric do not be the result...than no more this fancy diet or starving....did once..waist line 44 down to 34 and weight of 103+kg down to 95kg...wish me well friend/s...and pray that i don't go cook-coo or insane extremely :)
quiz: what goes up down up down round and round up down up down...
note: the effect can happen relating to the above situation.
It is wonderful, but painful
Monday, February 21, 2011 4:54 PM
i am happy, but at the same time unhappy... thing change, the world change, the best thing to do is change. i no more like what is happening...it make me sad to think about it. i am trying to find way and mean to reduce this unhappy feeling...i longed for the time when things were simple. i now lost that spark of light that calm me... it time now for me to venture again into the wilderness...the sea, the island ... i have made a decision to travel...be it many...alone too i will... i do not have the sense to be careful and dare me to be front. i hope that just ahead i will meet again with the light that calm me... for barely i to make it through...this moment i am almost on my knees...
friends...you may not understand what is written. i do not tell you actually...for my site is readily available to surf...by everybody...this is just me...telling me....what i feel in me..to ease what is eating me. thanks all that read this piece...at the moment i could not tell you openly...
dedication of demise friend of sudden unexpectedly
Sunday, February 20, 2011 11:49 PM
Al-Fatihah...all to a demise buddy of recent to be exact 17 of here February in the early morning around 4 ++ of hours before 30 of minutes. On motorbike hit by a car carelessly...admit of wrong the motorist. Never before set foot me in a mortuary...the first time...but comfortable me accept smell slightly but bearable...the thing that sadden me is on arriving only the mother and fiancee in sadness... i do feel for the sis and aunt the uncle are far to assist.... i assisted as much possible can be until finally all that should come...did all thee...until rest in peace. tears i hold manage through out ...but cry i did as i leave the compound of the cemetery... i learned and understand greatly...my dear friend, we miss you greatly...thanks for being a good buddy to me...appreciate i until eternity...here i dedicate some picts last you with me doing activities that you enjoyed greatly friend...my condolences and sympathy to the mother and fiancee... my assistance is at your disposal...just command me.
tears don't my friend...but redha with the decision of the Al-Mighty....a second early nor a second late...precise it be when the time comes call by He.
sad...thought no more
Thursday, February 17, 2011 10:19 PM
well...thought wouldn't feel sad any more...but yesterday double sadness double time... maybe lost not one but two, no more enthusiastic feeling...just plain lost dark feeling. only wants to be alone and i should have stayed so. that's all i can write for now...or maybe ever :( taking my leave now...
question: what's so wonderful and hurt like hell at the same time? any takers...
travel log...two places
Monday, January 3, 2011 4:15 PM
Recently JinAir~ traveled to two places...Chiangmai a city in northern part of Thailand...what for you ask... an observer at the 15th. ASEAN Varsity Games. 15th. until the 19th. of December 2010 the end of the year over errrr more of a land travel...by Air Asia of course. not so fortunate that JinAir~ was broke...self expenditures was just over rm200.00 or in baht term 2000.00...not much that ones able to fish out for gifts...as for self gift only two pairs of Thailand loose pants of linen. Been looking for such items for quite sometimes...the highlight of JinAir~ travel. Moving around mostly on foot for much could be seen doing so. Not much of a picture of the journey...for excitement was not there...will get from buddy one able to kidnap the picture/pictures.
pict 1: ict room eerr the front
pict 2: meal time but just drink for me (eerrr don't tell anybody...broke dry me pocket) halal of course
pict3: the girls (a plenty) errr i mean the secretariat hall
pict4: enquiries by yours truly hehehe
foot note: managed to get the phone numbers for massage service...but pass to a friend as JinAir's is and always truthful to self (broke ssyyyy).
question: what wonderful but pain to see? any takers...
just one moment in the mind of here JinAir~
Monday, November 29, 2010 6:36 PM
felt an emotional wind...blew JinAir~'s the not so many anymore hair...bro sudden as it was JinAir~'s is tired...why? not knowing the reason...but just maybe active me is no more active. An invitation to conduct a training on this here 2nd till 5th December 2010 may once again burn bright the spirit once had and hold... lenggong, perak the destination... what goes through the mind, well ...could me here principles of training still hold truth... will what says still hold water or just the experiences ...valid they are no more...could it be an opportunity to measure the once solid concept or just disaster it be to nail shut the fate of here JinAir~'s ...well maybe just as well give a last try as stand may not JinAir~'s anymore in this here earth of a world...crawling back into the depth of the ocean where it is dark cold and lonely as me here JinAir~'s as always been... a d i o s s e n o r s e n o r i t a....k e k e k e k e k e.....
best be the celebration of eid mubarak
Wednesday, September 8, 2010 5:26 PM
The best of celebration wishes JinAir~ to friend of me and thee... journey of safe where ever it be... care to all and care to me....thou wandering about not for JinAir~ of late or in future a big maybe. Everything for others... JinAir~ has done indeed...well for JinAir~ what on the back is enough indefinitely... thanking in advance friends for always concerned every...meet always JinAir~ not of lately... while moving about JinAir~ meet definitely but if in lair reluctantly be free... tired and exhausted always JinAir~ seem to be...but be honest to all thee... forgotten and reluctant JinAir~ will be once rest.... its all of JinAir~...in mind in spirit in emotion in physical for a stable wellbeing... Well not JinAir~ of what have achieves... to improve and upgrade JinAir~ work but slowly... forgive JinAir~ friends if we not see...the future behold are yet to greet JinAir~ or maybe... for what it is worth to thee... I am sorry if ever me humble me do injustice to all of thee... bye dear bye all thee...for now these all the entry...pass celebration JinAir~ hope greatly... to write as often as JinAir~ can be. Adios senor senoritas JinAir~ bit thee....write whatever that help JinAir~ to see... think of best JinAir~ wish thee.
a passing thought ... feeling
Friday, August 27, 2010 9:02 AM
felt happy...but mostly sad, happy for i am slowly...things to sort i sorted, may it be slow but careful i am... three of things that wanted to sort i am, for uno...a tasks undertake for betterment of peer office it be... result or insult...yet to be seen, dos... ambiances environment office it be... arrange i did and neat and clear but still looks hehehehe manage the look bit... jester or serious...for tres... effort affective the result be...others to i wishes...to allow the time be or immediate to wait and see. the sad come gloom to gloomy...the struggle cum fight within me...honest i am in vocal and in deed... but sad in feeling what felt within, a paper of legal comes to charge me ....the one closes throws tantrum readily... giving up not my cup of tea...but a maybe this time should i give in. question comes question, hit to and through me, filter out just answers in pieces, shreded makes difficulty, to evaluate to conclude to justify not easy...maybe in time fall in place all will be... solace...solitude...so in silent i sit... kill me quick that all i plead...
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